Talkingbird123's Blog

Well, that’s the ultimate hurt.

So I think I finally know what it is I love about you. When we met, I was shattered. All pieces spread out across the floor, and you saw the beauty of their division. You saw the beauty of something broken. You took those pieces, and you made me something, something that you love. It [...]

I feel like my heart needs hope. So doubtful over everything, I rarely feel like I can stay in one place. Maybe that’s why I’m always moving, so I don’t feel…but in the end, I feel everything. Staying in one place magnifies those feelings of loneliness and inadequacy, but moving, well it’s almost freeing. I [...]

T.E. Kalem once said, “A final comfort that is small, but not cold: The heart is the only broken instrument that works”. I can’t say that it is a comfort,or if it is warm, but I can tell you that makes one resentful. The reminder that you are broken yet it is your fault you [...]

And I couldn’t believe it was happening, but you looked at me so genuinely. You saw I was happy, and you were happy for my happiness. You put asides so many memories, so many obstacles, and you saw me, just me. And for once, I felt proud to know you. Instantaneously, I forgave you and [...]

I had my doubts, and I thought it over. I had a dream, and it reminded me of all my choices. Why I did what I did, and why I should never go back. It was cold, it was distant, and I found a reason not to return. I’m not coming back, I’ve found somewhere [...]

I really wish I was an orphan….life would be so much easier that way.

I want to change my name and live somewhere where no one knows my name. I want to live free from this cage, and find a home much better suited. I want a door that always open even if it isn’t safe, and I want to never stay in one place. I want to fly [...]

I am so over Jersey. I’m moving somewhere warm, and where people are friendly…fuck this bullshit.

So lately I get this feeling like I want to burst out of my skin, and go in all different directions. But here I am, sitting still. I am waiting for a train to take me anywhere, anywhere besides here. I am sick of waiting, I’m sick of standing still….someone get me out of here.